I sometimes wonder what would happen if i completely stopped initiating conversations with my friends. I would still talk to them when addressed first by them, I just wouldn't initiate anything. Would I have any friends? I can't be the only person who has ever wondered this. I'm just kind of hesitant to put it into practice. Its a lonely thought.

tunes!

i posted this on my last.fm... but i am kind of bored and procrastinating (and there is going to be one change), sooooooooo

10 favorite albums of 2007

1. Cloud Cult- The Meaning Of 8 (song: purpose)
2. The National- Boxer (song: slow show)
3. Great Lakes Myth Society- Compass Rose Bouquet (song: queen of the barley fool)
4. Jeremy Enigk- The Missing Link (song: canons)
5. Chris Garneau- Music For Tourists (song: black and blue)
6. Band Of Horses- Cease To Begin (song: cigarettes wedding bands)
7. Bright Eyes- Cassadaga (song: hot knives)
8. Aesop Rock- None Shall Pass (song: coffee)
9. Stars- In Our Bedroom After The War (song: barricade)
10. Spoon- Ga Ga Ga Ga Ga (song: don't make me a target)

not a great year for music, in my opinion. hopefully 2008 gives us something more.

girls! (nice guy v. pushover)

so i promised myself that this wasnt going to be a blog that turns into a journal complaining about girls, and i intend to keep that promise. im not going to complain about anything or anyone, in that regard. i'm not even going to talk about any one girl specifically. just a relationship problem that i, and guys like myself, face.

i consider myself a "nice guy". you know, the kind who might "finish last". but after a little thought, i think actually i am not a nice guy. i'm more of a pushover. and i think a lot of "nice guys" are actually pushovers.

we think because we bend over backwards to do anything for girls, because we fall in love so quickly and our hearts stay so faithful, because we sacrifice a lot in relationships to make our girlfriends happy, that these actions make us nice, or worse yet, that they make us good boyfriends. they can contribute to it, IF we stand up for ourselves and do things to make US happy too. i think thats why it seems lots of girls go for smooth talking, self-serving assholes. they have confidence. they know they deserve to be treated right, so they act that way. women are natually attracted to confidence (at least according to Mystery on that one vh1 show). If a dude acts confident, i think a woman will respect him, and like him more. if hes a pushover, then she will push. its pretty simple. we need to know that we deserve to be happy in relationships as well. its the only way things will ever work.